NEXT!

I have always wanted that role of a lifetime. One that challenges all that I have lived and learned. One that has alluded me these many years, despite my sacrifices and doing “all the right things”.

But, the concept of asking and actually receiving?

No, I have not done that. I have worked my ass off for it, but never asked for a handout… or maybe a helping hand…or just a hand.

Maybe that is the problem.

I never asked.

Or had a faith strong enough to believe I could receive by simply asking.

Hmmmm…

Maybe I should try it now.

Dear Universe, I ask that you bestow upon me a role that utilizes all of the gifts you have given me (and that I worked for and on), so that I may finally feel that the sacrifices I have made have been worth it… I mean after all, I did not choose this path. It was in me from a child. A poor child in a small town outside of Pittsburgh, where there were no “actors”…we didn’t even have a TV set, so…yeah, how ‘bout ya come through for me sometime soon. I ain’t gettin’ any younger ya know.

Okay…that’s probably TMI…I need to back that off… maybe let go of some of the resentment, despair, confusion…yeah, that’s it…alright, how ‘bout this…

Dear Universe, give me a good f’n acting job.

Nahhh, that’s kinda harsh, even though that is what I mean. Lemme try one more time.

Dear Universe, I would be so grateful to be well used in this world. I hope it is through acting.

Well, that nails it. That’s the truth of it I guess. That, and whatever comes next.

Because there is always a next…right?

— Trish