I was told that it was “all in my head.” The feelings of panic and worry would not go away. I had difficulty sleeping and resorted to supposedly non-addictive sleeping aids. They turned out to be very addictive and I couldn’t fall asleep without them. Without sleep, I was unable to concentrate during the day. I thought I was losing my mind.
The worst feelings came when I worried about what he would say. Did I do everything he expected or did I do things the “right” way, the way he wanted things done? My heart would race and my stomach would ache. There was a time in my life when I suffered from extreme anxiety and it became a habit. I became used to it, but I knew it was destroying me.
As time passed, I realised that I needed to do something to help myself. With the help of friends and a lot of personal effort, I have been able to change my mindset. I sleep better, which, in itself, changes everything. I no longer agonise over what he may think about my actions. Reading, art, walking and meditating have all been helping me relieve stress and I feel as though I am learning to live again.
— MCW
The worst feelings came when I worried about what he would say. Did I do everything he expected or did I do things the “right” way, the way he wanted things done? My heart would race and my stomach would ache. There was a time in my life when I suffered from extreme anxiety and it became a habit. I became used to it, but I knew it was destroying me.
As time passed, I realised that I needed to do something to help myself. With the help of friends and a lot of personal effort, I have been able to change my mindset. I sleep better, which, in itself, changes everything. I no longer agonise over what he may think about my actions. Reading, art, walking and meditating have all been helping me relieve stress and I feel as though I am learning to live again.
— MCW
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