I have Alzheimer’s, I remember the past better than the present. I have a pocket-sized notebook/calendar, a smart phone, a computer and a loving husband to keep me on track.
I do remember I was a different person before my COVID fear. I was adequately functional, just a bit forgetful. My mix of fear and personal isolation was enabled by Zoom, Google, the nightly news and Amazon Prime. I lived through my computer, related by email.
Because I am elderly and senile with the lungs of a former smoker, I went into a self-styled hibernation, way into it: my husband, dog and cats, neighbors at a distance and everything else in my life by phone or Zoom. I have always been somewhat introverted but COVID brought me down to the fear-based bottom of a deep pit. I am climbing back up and out.
Truly it’s more than COVID. I have always been on the shy side of other people, except when we have a connection of some sort or if I know there is something to give to or receive from each other. And I have always been a bit forgetful around the edges. Getting up and out of my COVID fear, climbing back into strong and whole again is a strain added to by my recent diagnosis of Alzheimer’s.
I rise to high into my 80th year simultaneously older, wiser and more forgetful and more connected to everyone, everywhere. I am so thankful for this life and the memories I have.
— Julian
I do remember I was a different person before my COVID fear. I was adequately functional, just a bit forgetful. My mix of fear and personal isolation was enabled by Zoom, Google, the nightly news and Amazon Prime. I lived through my computer, related by email.
Because I am elderly and senile with the lungs of a former smoker, I went into a self-styled hibernation, way into it: my husband, dog and cats, neighbors at a distance and everything else in my life by phone or Zoom. I have always been somewhat introverted but COVID brought me down to the fear-based bottom of a deep pit. I am climbing back up and out.
Truly it’s more than COVID. I have always been on the shy side of other people, except when we have a connection of some sort or if I know there is something to give to or receive from each other. And I have always been a bit forgetful around the edges. Getting up and out of my COVID fear, climbing back into strong and whole again is a strain added to by my recent diagnosis of Alzheimer’s.
I rise to high into my 80th year simultaneously older, wiser and more forgetful and more connected to everyone, everywhere. I am so thankful for this life and the memories I have.
— Julian
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